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Why Going Home Makes Me Wonder What the Hell I’m Doing With My Life


Going home for the holidays is always wonderful. I love seeing my family, lying around the house, eating Mom’s delicious food, enjoying the California sunshine and cuddling with the dogs. I also like passing by all the familiar places of my childhood: elementary school, the corner store, downtown, my first job, the old movie theater, etc. etc. These places bring back memories and remind me of what I am made of.

However, despite all the good things, going home can be challenging too. Back in my original element, I remember my original dreams and aspirations. I think about where I am currently, and start to feel depressed. Am I doing the right thing? Why haven’t a made it to the top yet? Why aren’t I living in a place with more opportunities? Why am I working a full-time job instead of pursuing my career as an artist? Why why why??

These questions started when as a family we watched the Kennedy Center Awards last night. Dustin Hoffman, Led Zeppelin, David Letterman… all these people whose careers reached the point of ultimate success. Who blazed through all the challenges and carved out their own unique niche in the world. I try to imagine what it would feel like to be honored in that way. Could I just give up at that point and be able to spend a week in my hometown without questioning whether I’ve made the right decisions in my life? Could I let myself off the hook once and for all and be happy with the path that I’ve taken? Don’t get me wrong- I am in many ways satisfied with what I’ve done and where I’ve been up until this point. However, I also feel there’s more to do, and more to overcome in order to reach my goals.

As a New Year’s resolution, I’m split. My goals in many ways are contradictory: follow my dream, and yet still manage to enjoy life along the way. Easier said than done, but no matter what I’m determined to be a successful artist and still have a life than is relaxing and enjoyable. The big question is….

Is that possible?????

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The art of writing a dream version of everything

I’m working on writing a teaching philosophy for academic teaching job applications, and it’s been a struggle to capture my ideas and passions for teaching in a quaint little job application package. There are lots of things that I love about teaching, but to sound professional and feel confident while doing it makes the blank page glaring at me on the computer screen not as welcoming as I would like it to be.

I remember a drawing project we did in 3rd grade where we created imaginary dream houses. There were no rules, and the teacher encouraged us to think beyond the impossible. This was my favorite thing to do in the world.

I don’t remember exactly what my house looked like, but I remember it having

A flying car:

A rope swing into the abyss:

A cloud bed:

And a swimming pool with mermaids:

What I loved so much about the dream house was that it had endless possibilities. Anything I felt passionate about could be crafted visually together into one fantastic drawing that I hung up on the wall and felt proud of. The most fabulous thing about it was is that I truly believed that my imaginary dream house could come to reality.

In my dream teaching philosophy it doesn’t matter if I get the job or not, if they’ll call me in for an interview or not, if they’ll include benefits and relocation fees or not…. My dream teaching philosophy is an imaginary wonderland of fantastic learning and growth. Here are a few of the parts that are essential:

Lots of laughing:

Phenomenal artistic creation:

A few tear-jerking moments:

Collaborative thinking and group inspiration:

And a learning experience that makes everyone hungry to come back for more:

Sometimes writing the fantastical, DREAM version of serious writing requirements can help free the burden of HAVING to write something, and make it more FUN. I hope that this blog post will motivate me to have more fun with my academic writings and job applications. I hope it will motivate you, too!!!

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