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When in Doubt, EXERCISE.

Since we’ve been on the topic of self-doubt and artistic struggle for the past couple of weeks, I thought I’d take this opportunity to introduce you to the crazy (and artistic) world of fitness.

When I feel like crap about myself and the work that I’m creating, I exercise.

In the act of focusing on the movement of my own body, I’m able to let go, at least for the moment, of whatever it is that’s dragging me down into the dumps.

Not surprisingly, it’s often when I’m on a run in the park with my dog or swimming laps at the gym that the most profound artistic ideas dawn on me.

Not only does exercise give your bothersome, negative thoughts a breather, but it also makes you feel good about yourself.

Exercise = Wellbeing = Totally Awesome Art.

Or, in the least, it offers you a chance to come back to whatever it is you’re working on with a fresh point of view, PLUS sport killer abs in the locker room.

***Want to check out some awesome, weird fitness videos? Check out my Manic Fitness blob: I’ve been collecting them! : http://manicfitness.blogspot.com/ ***

LINKS:

http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-536/Jane-Fonda-Launching-World-Fitness-Day.html (Mind Body Green)

http://factoidz.com/american-womens-fashion-trends-and-times-by-decade-part-3-70s-80s-90s-and-now/ ( American Women’s Fashion Trends and Times by Decade, Part 3 – 70’s, 80’s, 90’s and Now)

http://dpifitness.wordpress.com/2011/03/08/inspirationa-or-fitness-expert/ (Divine Proportion Inc)

http://www.mlive.com/news/muskegon/index.ssf/2009/05/seniors_enjoy_fitness_day_at_t.html (Seniors enjoy fitness day at Tanglewood)

http://sexymalebodybuilder.blogspot.com/ (Armon Adibi Top National Competitive Bodybuilder)

The Art of Self Doubt

Every person has their ups and downs. Every artist has her ups and downs too. Yesterday I was up, today I am down. Perhaps tomorrow I will be up again. Nothing is perfect. Every project is always growing and changing. For the past several weeks since I’ve been back in grad school, with this being my last year and my big thesis project looming up in the near future, it’s as if I’ve been on a rollercoaster of new artistic ideas that both excite me and at the same time couldn’t be more terrifying. One day I think I know exactly what I’m going to do, and the next day it’s all up in the air again. I do already have certain elements that I know I want to explore, and am already exploring, but how I want to execute it and the medium(s) that I choose to work with are still in questioning. Yesterday over an amazing pancake breakfast, I wrote nonstop for over two hours what I thought would be the first draft of the film I am (or was) going to make for my thesis. It was invigorating. The words just flowed out of me. They needed to sit on that page. And I felt great about it.. until I went back and read the script in the evening. The second time around, it didn’t seem as exciting as the first. In fact, it seemed so short and simple, not at all what I was really going for….. Today.. well, today I’m torn in between. In a lot of ways there are many elements within what I wrote that excite me. Certainly some new ideas came up from my inspired pancake writings. However, perhaps it is also okay to decide that even though it was inspiring in the moment, and I needed to get those ideas out, I don’t have to stick with the script that I created at all. I can let it go. And go back to the drawing board. And think again. And reassemble. And think again. And doubt again. And then feel inspired and confident again. And perhaps, eventually, string all the ideas that really hit home together and make something out of them. It’s an ongoing process. And it’s not always easy. But that’s a part of art making. Art making is not one continuous inspiration. It can also be hell sometimes. But maybe it’s the struggle that in the end creates the most meaningful work. Because you have to really think about it. You have to doubt in order to believe again.

Photo credit:

http://www.utopia-britannica.org.uk/pages/New%20Harmony.htm